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[14 Aug 2006|11:59am] |
im really starting to hate maine. and almost thinking about going back to FL. for a little while. all it is is NOTHING but drama and its totally fucking rediculis. tonight i went over to ebens though and hung out with a bunch of people i haven't seen in a LONG asss time it was fun. we watched a cky movie and it was so fucking helarious. but yeah im going to bed. i'll post tommorow most defff
- Shelly <3
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| sundays HA! |
[24 Jul 2006|05:47pm] |
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Well, theres really not much to say. Just another sunday. & it sucks. hopefullly i go swimming with danielle and timmy. it's a shock it really is. i actually painted my dresser all the memories and things people wrote on there are gone. i just figured it was time to start new ones instead of dwelling on the old ones but yah i think i did the right thing
last night i hung out with cassE and we met up with daneille angela and a bunch of other people and then went and got billy. my mom kept calling and calling asking me where i was and telling me to hurry up and get home. I thought she was just being a bitch but when i got home alls i wanted to do was laugh my ass out. it turns out thta someone was coming up to our windows saying my name and my sisters name "so my mom thought" hahahha then like at 3:30 this morning i went out in the living room to sleep because i couldn't breath from the paint fewms and i heard it again and guess what it was... ha! u'll never guess
IT WAS MY NEICES FUCKING DOLL TALKING INSIDE THE TOY BOX so i took the doll outa nd fucking ripped the battery out of it. it was mean of me but i know i weren't listening to that bullshit all night.
I went to the dentist today :) got my teeth cleaned got my teeth feel good. but of course i was naughty and went to McDonalds before i went hahaha
Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are...
So far from you
Burning on, just like the match you strike to incinerate
The lives
Of everyone you knew
And what's the worst you take? (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight
[chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are,
The very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take? (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight
[chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Well if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
Meet again
When both our cars collide
[chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Well if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight ...
Till Next Time Bitches!!! - Michelle
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| I Write Sins Not Tragedies |
[18 Jul 2006|01:41am] |
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BLAH!
Well today its just as hot out as yesturday, if not hotter. I haven't really dont much so far, but hey... its only 1:42 pm so yah. tonight around 5ish my sister is going to get her first tattoo and man is she scared. lol she asked me to come in and hold her hand. i have a feeling i wont have a hand left by the time i get out of there but o well im there for her if she needs me. me and the fam are going to pizzaslut for dinna haha "pizzahutt" but yah i can't wait i love that place. my sister is going to court today to make it so her boyfriend can see kylie considering damion put a pfa on him its bullshit it sucks she has to go threw all this at such a young age. she doesn't even know what the real worlds about yet and she's 21. I just hppe when i get older i find someone that wont put me threw what he has.
So things around rockland maine and all the other places haven't changed. same old drama and i dont think it ever will witch sux DRAMA IS FUCKING INVAIDING THE WORLD i dont really wanna write alot but i got alot to say today. i was up until 4 this morning working on the computer and chatting with others. i went from being supper happy to supper sad within five minutes im really bipolar at times. but who isn't? i got a new layout as most of u can tell. it happened to be the only cool one i could find that is only until I can find the time to make a new one witch wont be for a while because i have so much other sit i have to do but im going to stop writing now because obviously noone cares what i have to say. im boring myself for kriest sakes.
till next time
xox Shelly xox
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| fucking hott out eh? |
[17 Jul 2006|01:49pm] |
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god i just wish for one day it wouldn't be so hott out. today i totally ate shit. i was trying to ride a skateboard. well i know how but i was fucking doing ollies and shit down my road and totally ate shit. it sucked but oh well i got back up and tried it again. ozzfest is coming up i so can't wait system of a down etc. wow . right now i am listening to pantera- walk god ive been listening to alot of pantera lately. its awesome they really are an awesome band. i went into wild rufus yesturday with the ebster! he got some new stickers for his car. one said peirced and i can't remember what the other one said. then he bought like three cd's pantera was on of them :) we sat there and talked to matt for a few minutes and then i helped amt find me on his myspace so could add me and now all we do is message back and fourth about shows and ect. god i can't fucking believe i ate shit this morning. can't be any worse then me fucking on my ass on trav's skate board a few years back man that totally fuckign killed i thought i was parilized or some shit. i have no idea what im doing today prob just sitting home dl some new killer tunes i heard and working on the sites myspace,lostcherry,livejournal all that good shit.
I just recently got ahold of Photoshop7 and im trying to learn how to do some fucking ill shit to pics and become really good at designs and shit i wanna start drawing again so bad. things are going better now that ive started hanging out with new people and forgetting about those who once said they would be my friends till the end "liars"
its so flippin cool that billys back ive missed him so much. he's gotten so cute and alot taller and im glad he's doing good. it sucks his pappa died though that guy was awesome and did everything for billy and i know ill miss seeing him around.
well im out before this gets to long and boring
PeAcE !
xxx Rejected xxx
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| Rain sucks |
[20 Jun 2006|11:19am] |
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Last night me and kristi went fourwheeling. kriest we've been doing that alot lately and getting covered in mudd. today we rolled e'r THAT SUCKED! me and her thought hey what the heck we can make it down this huge ass steep fucking hill. well.......... we thought wrong. we coasted e'r down the whole way hit a rock and she flipped on us. i came home and i was completely covered in mudd. so i took a shower. bout an hour later on today kristi calls me back up & wants to go for another ride. i was like fuck it i wont get that muddy if it's only going to be a quick ride THE FUCKING RIDE ENDED UP BEING FOR FUCKING THREEE HOURS AND I WAS COVERED haha. plus we broke down cuz we ran out of gas. luckily her brother was with us. then i came home and took yet ANOTHER shower and waited for thea to get here because steve cruz and nick came to get us and we headed up to anthonys house to see his new crotch rocket fucking thing is mint. i tell ya me and thea waited in cruz's garage while nick and cruz ran steve home real quick. all's we did was set paper on fire while waiting for them. then when nick and cruz came back we all hung out in cruz's room and watched feener production films witch was pretty ill. i miss eben:( i just added him to my friends list on lj so i figured ide write about him to. no matter how much i bitch and complain eben always is there to listen and it doesn't bother him. well....... atleast he makes it seem like it dont witch makes me feel good. he knows exactly what to say to me to make me smile hes a really good friend. this bullshit with jeremy idk how long it's going to last but i hope he dont exspect to swing back my way when hes threw with this chick because i tell ya i have moved on and im not getting my heart broken again. if he dont want to be friends anymore and throw four years of friendship down the drain THATS HIS FUCKING PROBLEM not mine idk its weired. im so happy for him though becuase i want him to be happy..... even if happy doesn't involve me.
p.s ben and deanna are finally parents a little late to let everyone know but autum marie porter is the most precious baby around and i know she will be well taken care of . congradulations guys i <3 u
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[06 May 2005|04:16pm] |
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I know i haven't wrote in this ina LONG ass time but i haven't had time.. lol but i will later on tonight cause im going bowling with amy and dean and brian so i should have alot to tell lol *Michelle*
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[30 Apr 2005|07:23pm] |
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I know i must forget the memories but i can't help but love u......
I really hate updating this thing but if im going to have one i minds well keep it up to date know what i meean.......... hmm let' s see what michelles been up to... sosed "same old shit every day" i guess.. nothing really knew.... i leave for Tennessee soon can't wait :-D cept the fact that beckys dad spelt my name wrong on the ticket.. im really going to get homesick and miss everyone specially thea and jeremy..... hmm maybe i'll get some calling cards o yeah and if ur a friend of mine and would like to leave me a comment and give me ur mailing address i'll write cha kk ;-D and ur # if i don't have it so i can make a few phone calls hehe .... today i hung out at bens all day cause .. i stayed at his house last nite ... it was fun but man was i high me and ashlee smoked ALOT of pott that day out of her new killer bowl :-D ... it's a little dragon and we call it PUFF hahahaha.... last nite as we all know it was the greenday concert... with MCR opening "my chemical romance" i would of been their but i had to watch my niece ... shes waaaaaayyyy more important if u ask me... everything with my familys a mess right now my sister aint doing to well and i don't know what to do anymore.. im confussed i just want her to do what makes her happy.. and do right in life and get out of that hole that shes in and get away from her so called boyfriend cause he's not good news at all i fucking hate him all he does is fill her head full of shit and it fucking pisses me off cause she gets mad at him and takes it out on everyone around her.... thea if ur reading this u know what im talking about girllll..... but anyways yeah.. nothing new really i have a new crush :-D he's wickid sweet but i aint gunna even bother im gunna take it slow with boys for now they get me into to much trouble then theirs the ones that play games ... they like to think they can do whatever they wont and i'll stick around.. well im tired of getting my heart ripped out and stepped on no more... ! but i guess that's all i have to say for now write back soon *Michelle* <3
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| Monday night |
[25 Apr 2005|09:45pm] |
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ugh right now i am just sitting here being bored jeremy ben and deanna just left and im listening to music , my vacation was alright i hung out with becky alot and thats about it... same o'l same o'l but yeah.... other wise.... i talked to bryan me and him are cool i guess.. ive talked to jeremiah i guess he got an appartment and wants me to come stay with him sometime but idk idk if i wanna head down that road again... im confussed with guys right now.. ive been called a slut quiet a few times witch is retarded cause i don't sleep around and if i do have sex its with one person but im not going to state who that is but w/e i'll update later peace yall
*Michelle*
<3
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| Home alone:-D |
[13 Apr 2005|07:38pm] |
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well hmm lets see ... afta skool i hung out with jess and brian and we road around went to wasus or whatever it's called got some hotdogs then road around some more went to jessicas got cameras came to my house took some pics wrestled then dean and jesse came and got brian and it was just me and jess.. i did dishes... and then jess lefted i watched Daddy Daycare and fell asleep... woke up repierced my belly botton.. and yeah that's about it .. rite now im just sitting here doing completely NOTHING being bored needing a ciggerette really bad if u know what i mean im like having withdrawls and it sucks ! I was talking to my mom about my trip to Tennesee with becky and i guess im geting quiet a bit of money for it :-D i can't wait .. i have A bad feeling that im going to be wicked homesick though and that's what im afraid of... i don't wanna get their and ruin beckys time and want to come home.. and im talking to jeremiah rite now ... he makes me happy he's so funny ... :-D
peace *Michelle*
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| BITCHES |
[12 Apr 2005|10:17pm] |
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All you motha fuckers out their that like to leave anonymous shit in my comments do me a favor and grow the fuck up.. and another thing I DON'T FUCKING CARE WHAT GOES ON BETWEEN JEREMY AND KESHIA HAHA i really don't let them have eachother.... i hope they get fucking married it's his life not mine i have one that i need to work on myself.. im tired of the fucking drama.... and whatever i do is my bussiness and whoever it is thats been running it u don't want me to find out who u are... cuz belive me i will and u wont like it.. idc how many people u get after me bring it on u savey cunt.... just remember im not glass i wont brake.... nothing is ever going to change around here everyone is always gunna be imature and obsessive and ignorant no matter what that's why i hate life ......
idc who gets mad at me but this goes out to all the girls with guy problems IF THE GUY ONLY WANTS SEX FUCK HIM KICK HIS ASS .. DON'T CRY OVER IT... BELIEVE ME I SEEM TO KNOW ALOT OF THEM AROUND HERE DONT LET A FUCKING GUY GET U DOWN AND IF U CAN'T FIND A GUY SO WAT FIND A GIRL LESBIANS ARE AWESOME.. GUYS SUCK....
Im just not ina good mood so stop fucking around
peace ya punk bitches *Michelle*
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[11 Apr 2005|09:19pm] |
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just another boring nite at my house i moved my room around a little bit tonight and that's just about it.. ben deanna thea ericka and cruz came over.. i got to drive mollys car from beach st. to my house :-D that was fun and then I came back here finished picking up my room and just hung out with everyone and watched some porn and that's about it.. then jeremy came :-/ and picked everyone up ... he was at keshias hanging out ... came here to watch some porn and that's about it so yeah.... didn't seem to thrilled to see me but whats new... he didn't have to come talk to me if he didn't want to ... simple as that... but w.e im not gunna sit here and play ignorant games and fight with people anymore i feel it's a waste of my boring time in my boring life.. and yah... things are starting to fall apart again.. me and thea hardly hang out anymore.. i don't hang with casse that much and everything i miss the old life i used to live idc anymore...
Last nite i wrote two four page letters to bryan but accidently left them at school so i didnt get a chance to mail them today.. o well... ive waited this long why not another day hahaha but yeah that's about it sorry hommies that my life can't be any more exciteing peace niggaz
*Michelle*
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[10 Apr 2005|01:31pm] |
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hmm last nite lets see i hung out with thea and ashlee then we all walked down to casses and then cruz came down and i went riding around with cruz i got to drive :-D i was so happy and then we came back here and then me and him went to get thea and ericka and we all went riding around then came back here and waited for ben and deaanna to get here and then jeremy came down :-D and me and him watched roadtripp and just layed on the couch and hung out it was pretty fun .. then they all lefted and i talked to casse on the phone for a while till like 1 something until i started banging and my mom came in and "needed" the phone cuase shes dumb lol now im just sitting here getting ready to go tanning ... and so on and so on.. but idk i don't like writing in this but people are always like update update blah blah so yeah i did peace bitches
*Michelle*
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[09 Apr 2005|09:35am] |
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HOLL@ hmm last nite was interesting.. me thea ericka and ashlee and deanna had a ladiezz nite we went crusin around and then went up to the movies a few times then we finally went and saw cruz and he followed us and we had some fun then jeremy came over :-D and then ben and it was straight up partying all nite lol i don't know what im doing.. i don't have to work today so im probably gunna just chill tonight and do whatever comes up so yeah i think becky darlings coming over tonight and wow idk ..... my moms in a bad mood so i doubt that will go down but wow i hate riding in here bbl *Michelle*
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| BITCHES |
[08 Apr 2005|04:00pm] |
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today i stayed home from school AGAIN fun fun i sat around made some beats for my song and just chilled and talked to jeremy online and called ben and called some friends on the cells at school and made fun of them cause they were actually their haha and rite now im just sitting here waitin for thea to get here and possibly deanna then idk i'll see what happens from their peace bitches
*Michelle*
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| just another nite home |
[07 Apr 2005|09:42pm] |
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hmm today i didn't go to school because i had A "TOOTH ACHE" lol and i slepted then got up had a ciggerette and took a shower/bath watched some movies and yah then molly and ashlee came over and me mel ashlee molly and ashlees parents went out to eat at my step dads resturaunt witch was cool my first time in their and it's nice im going to be working their soon :-D i got home ben and deanna came over and we chilled chased some cats.. and sat in my room dean came over me and him worked on some beats and just CHILLED DUDE lol and like i knocked down lites and shit and it was crazy jeremy came over from keshias didn't even talk to me that much and yeah.. im tired of it.. i like hardly see him anymore... i was just gunna type something else but ima keep it to myself i don't wanna start anything.. im confussed and i don't know what to do anymore.. im tired of feeling like im getting played and my head is getting messed with.. i was talking to tia today and we were talking about the old days and how much i miss them.. and i miss them ALOT u don't even know.. the people I used to hang out with i don't even talk to anymore everyones changed cept me .. i would do anything to get the old days back chillen at tias with dan will bryan travis nicole and all them damn would i kill for them and all the memories at the rink and shit .. so on and so on idk anymore.. im begging to think that whole time was all make believe .... ya know just one big dream but that's just me i give up on everything.. i just tend to keep to myself i feel it's best.. i feel my only true friends are
thea
ericka
jeremy
deanna
ben
dean
brian
jesse
ashlee
molly
cassE
jibba
Tia
and whoever else is out their those are just recent people ive talked to
but idk i guess im just going to shut up now before i start something that i don't want to end up being a bad thing so peace yall !Michelle~
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| wow long nite |
[06 Apr 2005|07:49pm] |
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hmm what did i do today... well i came home from school and cleaned up a little bit and hung out with brian ashlee and mel and worked on some beats .. then DOOF came over... they took of and jess called me and wanted to hang out so we did.. we went rideing around and caused some mayjor hate and discontent it was AWESOME DUDE.... then she had to go to work around 6 and brought me home and i waited for ben and deanna to get here... lano came over cause ashlee had to go to nite school and we had fun.. he made me macoronie and cheese bitches :-D and we smoked a jibba lol speaking of jibba i didn't talk to him tonight :-/ o well.. then it was me mel dean ian ben and deanna and jeremy came over around 9:30 and me and him layed down and watched a movie.. i was so glad to see him it was like a week sence the last time i saw him was :-D and that made my night other then my mom being annoying... and walking and staring at us like she didn't even know who he was lol obviously it's jeremy mom come on u aint that dumb even though u do smoke crack lol but yeah i talked to my beautiful girlfriend today Cassandra Lee Grant WHOO that makes me wanna cream my panties but yeah jeremy and them just left and now im all alone smoking a ciggerette listening to some music thinking about going to bed but i'm not sure but i'll update later on peace niggaz *Michelle*
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[02 Apr 2005|03:17pm] |
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Hmm well it's Saturday and im just sitting here doing nothing listening to music and that's about it.. i haven't really updated this thing much so today considering im sitting home alone i guess i could do it :-/ yah... everything happens to be going downhill again
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*Michelle*
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| Long weekend i guess |
[28 Mar 2005|01:56pm] |
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Hmmm .. lets see i think it was thursday me ben deanna and jeremy went raising hell and cruz followed us AHHHa lolfriday i went to bens and then deanna and cruz came over... my uncle took us all here and cruz followed us when jeremy got out of work he came here and got us and we went rite to bens ... saturday last nite i don't think we did much out anything last nite we all hungout here and watched napolian dynomite it was me ben deanna jesse dean ashlee molly ian melissa lano and jeremy it was fun and yah now im just sitting here doing not much of anything and being bored, sick , hurting, and tired but yah other wise no complaints.... Becky got her lisence so when we go to Tennesee in june we can cruize around if she will lol i would no doubt about it but yeah like i said i don't like writing in these things that much so yah.. i'll update later *Michelle*
PIT ROWE!!!
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[21 Mar 2005|08:14pm] |
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Hey yall it's me MICHELLE .... hmmmm i write in this thing very often but i haven't for a while so yeah... hmm what have i been up to ... well this past weekend amy camed down me her and thea and ericka went for a walk then we went for a walk... and talked to dean brian ashlee lono and them then me and dean and amy came back here and watched movies witch was fun i guess... i went to bens on friday hung out with him but i can't member what we all did i think we were here and hung out... fucking jeremy gota flat one of the nites and him ben and deanna were here till like 12:30 then tammy jeremys mom came and got them and they went home cause he had to be at work at 6... long night that was... all kinds of shit went on "DRAMA" thats all it is but yah anyways.....idk... im bored.... my sister thinks shes pregnent WHOOAAA that's the newest news i got is im leaving june 23rd for Tennesee with my girl becky for a MONTH whoo i can't wait ...
but yah w.e peace *Shelly*
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[17 Mar 2005|05:48pm] |
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wow i haven't written in this thing for so long.. hmm what has shelly been doing... well lately ive been hanging out with jeremy ben and deanna and just being retarded lol tonight im hangin out with them all too :-D and i don't know what we are doing hopefully something fun but if not then that's cool i just love hanging out with jeremy cause hes' my best friend and we are getting closer and closer by the moment... rite now im getting my hair done by molly it looks awesome ~! i just got out of extended detention... me and mel we didnt even stay for the whole thing we took off during our brake it was so funny we were rite parinoid that Mr. Forti was gunna come out and find us and make us go back we were like MOLLY COME GET US lol man.. i need to pluck my eye brows... i called bryan last nite he was like hey babe! i haven't talked to u in so long then we were telling eachother what we have been up to and hes like u wanna know something funny and i was like what and he's like i was just thinking about u then u called it was the funniest thing but im glad to here from u i was like aww and i almost started crying... i remember the first time bryan called me and i BALLED my eyes out everyone that was their was almost in tears too hahaha but yah i'll update this latter sometime peace yall
*Shelly*
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